Confessions of an Emotional Eater

There they are.....the four boxes of Girl Scout cookies that I just had to order! They are staring me in the face! I restrain....I walk away. But they just keep calling my name. It is like a drug to me! Sugar~Chocolate~Caramel~Coconut

I love the crisp crunch as I take that first bite. I savor it in my mouth and inhale every delicate scent as the rich, buttery morsel slowly melts. I close my eyes...the rush begins! I feel like a drug addict as I wait for that sugar to hit my blood stream. I am at peace!

I love to eat! I crave sweet foods! I crave the fizz of a cold can of soda! I crave that sensation of chocolate melting on my tongue! I dream of ice cream and plan out the next time I can convince my husband that we need to stop at Dairy Queen! Desserts are my favorite!

Food has become my crutch.

If I am having a bad day - I reach for food.

If I am stressed out - I reach for food.

If I am celebrating - I reach for food.

If I am feeling sick - I reach for food.

If I am bored - I reach for food.

This is the pattern that I need to break! I need to relearn how to occupy my time with something other than food. I need to eat healthy meals and snacks, and only splurge occasionally! This is my challenge! This is my weakness!

This is my confession!

Day #3 of Flabby~2~Firm

EXCUSES!!!

The snooze button on my alarm was my friend today!!! Since returning from the BPA State Leadership Conference, I have just not felt 100%. Now I am battling a head cold, along with my husband and two of my kiddos. It is NOT fun. Yesterday was my long day, so this morning, I decided to give my body a rest by sleeping in and not going to the gym. However, the day is not over yet. While my oldest is at guitar lessons, I am gonna throw on my walking shoes and spend that 30-minutes cruising around downtown Emporia on my feet. Tonight will be stretching and Yoga. My muscles need some TLC.

Surprisingly, I am not as sore as I had thought I might be. For now, I am going to do the strength training video every other day, until I build up strength and endurance. It will take me longer than the 30-days that the video indicates...but that is okay! This is a marathon, NOT a sprint.

Sick and Tired of feeling Sick and Tired

So, has this been the LONGEST winter or what??? I mean, seriously??? I felt so blessed during the Christmas holiday that no one in our family had really gotten sick. Then WHAMO....we got knocked down with sinus infections, ear infections, stomach flu, and now just a plain ole nasty cold. It is crazy how a simple cold can take a person down so quickly and make them feel like pooh-pooh!!!

I am so ready to open the windows and let the outside in! I want to pull down curtains and wash everything! Dust my house from floor to ceiling! Take down the tired ole snowman decor and put up spring flowers, bunnies and Easter Baskets! Spring Break is less than two weeks away! I am so ready for some lazy days to sleep in, hit the gym mid-morning, and then spend the afternoons chasing my children around the park! I am also so ready for early evening walks outside and the smell of fresh cut grass! Daffodils are dancing in my dreams!

Day #2 - Flabby-2-Firm

Well, I decided to change the way my blog appears. I thought the pink text was difficult to read. Plus, since I am headed to Orange County, California in May, I thought it would be fitting to have my blog represent my true goal....to be fit and firm for the O.C.

Let's see.....I made it through Day #1. That is always the easiest day! I am motivated and feel like I could conquer the world. By the end of my working day, I had this incredible pain in my upper right leg. Not sure if it was a strained muscle or a pinched nerve, but it HURT. I did a lot of stretches last night and this morning it felt much better. It may have been my body's way of saying to slow down! At any rate, I decided to wait and start the 30-Day Shred video until today!

For Day #2, I started out with Level 1 of the 30-Day Shred. I am not too proud to admit that I had to do the modified version of some of the exercises a few times. I also had to allow myself a few 5-second breaks. It is a 20-minute workout and Jillian kicks your a$$. I am trying to decide if I attempt the strength exercises daily, or every other day. I may go with every other day for now. Once I have built up my endurance and strength....I will kick it up a notch. Speaking of strength...I have NO upper body strength. Push-ups were difficult! I will definitely be sore tomorrow!

Today is my LONG day, as I am working til 3:30. Rush around to get the kids picked up and fed. Then back to work by 5:30 for a night class. 5:00 a.m. will come early on Wednesday morning. Luckily, the forecast this week is partly sunny with warmer temps! I am ready to get outside and start walking. Walk Kansas begins on Sunday....so I need to make sure I am getting plenty of minutes of exercise each day!!! Team - Bring It On is gonna ROCK!

I hope that everyone has a Terrific Tuesday!!!

Day #1 - Flabby.....2 Firm

Wow, I have not posted on this blog since 2008. Since discovering Facebook, I have kinda been out of the Blogging Mode. Well, since I am embarking on a new challenge, I felt that blogging would be the easiest and most effective way for me to journalize my current challenge. That is to turn flab into firm! Now, some of you may look at me and think I am thin. I am not saying that I am overweight....but I am squishy! My goal is to eat healthier, firm up the flab, go down a size of clothing, and lose a few pounds along the way. Today is March 1st, 2010. No better time to get started than the present. Here is what I am going to do along the way:

• Journal my daily food intake. If it crosses my lips, it needs to get written down!


• Exercise daily! I am going to use the 30-Day Shred for strength training; daily cardio at Emporia Fitness; and the Walk Kansas challenge to keep me motivated. I am NOT gonna be a beer wench at the lake this summer!


• Work on my running endurance, as I want to run a 5k this summer.


• Blog my efforts daily! This will keep me accountable not only to myself, but to the lurkers out there who decide to creep into my blog and ready my daily posts.

I am staring out at 5'3" and 142 pounds. My BMI is 25.2 which is technically overweight. Granted, it is the low end, but still....overweight is really not how I characterize myself.

Today, I woke up a little before 5 a.m. and headed to the gym. I was on the treadmill for 45 minutes, and did interval running. After work, I am headed to buy a measuring tape so I can take proper measurements of my body. Then, I will pop in 30-Day Shred and get started with strength. I plan on posting again tonight.

Happy Monday! Let the challenge begin!

Finally Friday!

This has been a quick week and I cannot believe it is Friday, but in the same breathe, THANK GOODNESS. I have worked out 3 days. I SHOULD have worked out today, but I will get a workout tonight when I chase the toddler around the high school football game and climb the stairs a dozen times. In the meantime, I feel bloated and nasty. I splurged and had a Chinese dinner out with some friends last night and then dessert was Cheesecake and Wine......what was I thinking??? Oh well, I am still craving a second piece of cheesecake, so go figure. I really need to join another Weight Loss Challenge, simply to motivate me. I don't need to lose a significant amount, but I need that motivation and accountability. I will start searching....well, until then, CIAO!

Back on the WORKOUT WAGON!

Okay, so it is 5:06 a.m. and I up, dressed, and headed OUT the door to the gym. It has been at least 4 weeks since I regularly attended the gym. WHY the break??? No reason, just pure and simple laziness. I could list a dozen excuses, but the bottom line is...LAZINESS. I have gained about 3 pounds, so I just feel sluggish, so hopefully I can rev up my healthy eating habits and pair it up with some exercise and be back to my normal self by October 4th! Why October 4th???? I am going to a FABULOUS wedding and I need to wear my 'little black dress'. Okay, I am outta here, otherwise I would type all day and have yet another 'excuse' for not working out!

Love ya! Jewely