After last night's miserable weigh in (I did not gain or lose)....I decided it was time to start exercising again. It had been almost 2-weeks since I had rose early and exercised...so this morning when the alarm went off at 5:00 a.m., it was kinda hard getting outta bed. It was even more difficult to motivate myself to actually put on my tennis shoes and press play on that Denise Austin DVD...BUT I DID IT. Not only did I boost my metabolism....I also boosted my self confidence. I was feeling pretty miserable after I had lost 2 pounds (flu induced) but then gained it right back. Plus, I am pretty sure that the scale is broke!!! Seriously, the number screen has flashed the same 132.8 for weeks now!!! Maybe that is just where my body is comfortable. Maybe this is my destiny. Perhaps I just need to be happy with the fact that I weigh less than I did when I got pregnant with Seth and Karah. Perhaps I need to be happy that I am back to size of clothing I was wearing when I started dating TJ. Perhaps I need to take the confidence boosting comments from Jennifer Sauder and Lacie Hamlin and play them back in my head countless times a day and realize that my peers think I look good.
Perhaps I need to pull my head outta my ass and get back on track with my Weight Watchers Points.....SERIOUSLY.....if I am being totally honest with myself....exercise comes easy to me....but eating healthy all of the time does not. It SUCKS! I would rather eat chocolate and ice cream and fried foods. I would much rather stroll down to the cafeteria and indulge in the homemade lunch made by the goddess 'Helen' and wrap my lips around a gigantic slice of cheesecake. I would much rather nibble on cheese puffs and sip Coca-Cola as I watch Oprah in the afternoons. I would much rather snack on Robins Eggs Malted Milk Eggs and Girl Scout Cookies, while I sit at my desk and grade papers. (I could go on and on and on....as I did not even mention the weekly stop by the donut case at Wal-mart as I am grocery shopping.....)
STOP THE INSANITY MRS. COOPER!!!
Today - I am giving the Robins Eggs to Brenda...as she comes by my desk daily for a handful. I am serving up the Girl Scout Cookies in Accounting Class today...hopefully the treats will soften the blow of the Pop Quiz I am giving. The other candy and hidden delights in my cubicle are going down to the Student Services Office, as those ladies need it more than I do. I am packing a healthy lunch and healthy snacks and I am sticking to it. I am also going to try something different....tracking my points starting with dinner being my first meal of the day. It may sound strange or opposite, but as long as I stay within my points range within a 24-hour period, surely that is really the only thing that matters. My downfall is supper.....as TJ and the family don't want to eat fish and chicken and steamed broccoli every night. So, I will cook a healthy, yet delicious evening meal and stop snacking after dinner! I will start my morning with my normal healthy breakfast and pack a healthy option for lunch and snacks....no more trips to the Tallgrass Grille for this lady. This is crunch time!!!! 12-weeks until Bikini Season!!!! I refuse to be that mommy at the swimming pool who is obviously wearing a swimsuit that is too small for her muffin top mommy belly that peaks over the bikini bottom and frightens the young children and teenage boys. I may not be Miss Fitness material...but I will be proud of my body and feel sexy in my own 34-year old skin!!!!